look at this
June 21, 2009 12:05 AMI probably shouldn't be thinking about it, but it's been nagging at my conscience lately. I wish things would have turned out for the best. If I say it with my mouth sometimes I'll trick myself into believing it true, but how do I really turn around my attitude and see the brighter side?
Right now, at least, I really miss it. I hate myself for it, but I can't control what emotions will play over my countenance.
Where has it gone? The elusive and surreptitious victory that we seek has gone amiss.
Justice.
How long do I wait? When will I be redeemed? Why am I placed here to face this suffering, and for how much longer?
Have I not been patient enough? Have I not proclaimed victory seven times around the walls? What is there left for me to do? All I can do is wait. Wait and wonder.
I should probably use less fragments, but my mind doesn't seem to be able to coherently string clauses together anymore. It's been this way for a while, I guess.
What could possibly right what has been wronged? How? And at what cost?
Why won't somebody stop and stare? Why does the world glaze over this hypocrisy? Ask yourself if you care. And ask yourself what your integrity is.