whatever it takes
June 15, 2009 6:45 PM"I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith."
2 Timothy 4:7
Junior year is over! It was indeed a difficult year and incredibly stressful. As I look back and I look forward, I begin to wonder what it is that sets me apart. You're set apart after you've accumulated the experience and wisdom necessary. I feel like a lot of things are falling into place, and the direction for which I am going is becoming more clear.
One of my best friends helped me realize it. I'll always be indebted to you Kwak haha, and yes I will remember you when I'm done and gone and high school is but a memory.
Discipline.
That's what it takes. That's what my whole year has been about: building discipline. I've learned how to make commitments, but I've also failed some. Discipline is what's gnawing at my conscience, and what characteristic is being refined inside of me. Discipline is what I hope to achieve, and where I hope to progress. There will always be new chapters, it's about leaving behind the good and the bad and seeking something greater. There is always room to grow, and there is always progress.
I thought it was resilience, but now I realize that it is discipline for me. The choice to make between doing all I can, and being satisfied with what I can do. Making that choice is what I've been learning all these years. The difference between a good attitude and a bad one, and the difference between getting up out of bed and lingering.