LOA
September 20, 2009 6:01 PMBiggest test ever. I want my letter of assurance, will I get it?
Things on my mind: AP Comparative Government: I'm not taking the class, but I want to. It's a love-hate thing, but I sit in during fifth period because I have a hole, and I can take the AP test. SAT: Maybe since this time I have next to no pressure on me, I'll do stupendously better. How badly do I want a National Merit Scholarship? I want the prestige far more than the money. Cross country: Why do I still suffer from shin splints? When will my body fully develop? This sucks so bad, I am definitely willing to push it to the limit; not my lack of energy or dedication hinders me, but my physical development. Tired of taking time to complain about things I can't fix, leave them be. Reading: I want to read more in my spare time, instead of sitting around doing close to nothing. SYATP: Maybe I really just can't handle any more than what's on my plate. I should probably finish what's on my plate before I take more, but it's just so agonizing.
There's just SO much. I wish I could funnel it all and sort through the crap, prioritize some of it, filter more crap, and then just focus.
Focus.
Then it's gone again.
Why don't I tell people things? Do you need to protect a secret that much?
Here is one of the hooks to the personal statement I'm working on right now:
Somebody asked me once, “What is the most difficult thing to lift up?” I figured it was a sentimental question, so I pondered for a few minutes, then replied, “Each other.” A wave of amusement danced over his face. I silently rejoiced, quite smug at stumping his trick question with my stupendous intellect. His gaze turned distant and he answered me, “No, stupid, your eyelids are the heaviest things in the world.”