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"Saturn the Tester takes nearly 30 years to journey around the zodiac. It entered heart-centered Leo on July 16, 2005 and has leaned on the Lions for the past couple of years. Today the energy shifts, as serious Saturn enters Virgo, where it forces us to pay more attention to the everyday routine of our lives for the next couple of years. Additionally, the determined Taurus Moon reminds us to take it slow through this time of powerful transition."

mm.. my horoscope.
now, im not one to really believe in such things. but desperate times call for desperate measures. i've been turning to my horoscope these past few days, to help me brace what the upcoming days will bring.
this horoscope in particular, (todays) isnt quite encouraging. not like i never expected it to be.

it seems like the only way i can keep my mind off of things is by reading, sleeping, or watching tv. maybe even playing tennis, which i still havent gotten around to doing yet. even with those things, i still get distracted by my feelings. it feels inevitable.

for the past 2 days, i've been waking up at almost exactly 8:10 in the morning. i want to sleep in really badly, but i cant. i'll try closing my eyes, but i have too many thoughts running through my head, and its almost damn near impossible to push them away.

at times, i'll feel so confident, and strong. like my emotions cant bring me down or effect me. then at other times, they get the best of me. church today really helped me get through it a little. i had people i could talk to, and people who could console me. even if they didnt know what, or how to respond, just them being there was enough.
sometimes i feel that i have nothing in the world, and that im lonely. when in reality, i have everything i could possibly want and need. people who care, and people i can talk to. they really make everything so much easier, and im so grateful that i have them.

maybe this is just a short phase. some sort of ditch that God planned so that i can realize what im doing wrong. maybe a metamorphosis, or something.
i just hope my horoscope's inaccurate.

today was pretty good, much to my surprise. i actually decided to walk to school, which really helped me clear my mind of unwanted feelings and thoughts.
during lunch today, i also decided to take up debate team. so now i have block 4a debate. i went there today for the first time, and it seems like fun. they say it'll look good on your college application or whatever, and half of the class is only in it for that particular reason.
im in it because it looks like fun. plus, debate seems like the perfect place for me to improve my speech.

debate ended, and then i walked to tennis practice. ugh, they always say the first day is hard or whatever. and yea, they're so right. we had to run laps, do drills and all sorts of stuff.
my body isnt used to running so much, so while i was running to serve my backhand swing, (im a lefty :]) being the stupid clumsy person i am, i served a really nice backhand, then fell ontop of my own feet, which left me skidding on the stupid clay court. luckily, my pants didnt rip at the knees. but the nail on my "ring finger" totally ripped off, which again, being the big baby i am, left me howling in pain.

i still really wanted to play tennis, so i sucked it up, ran it under cold water, got a band-aid, sat down for a little bit, then played again. i actually came to the discovery that i suck at tennis. i mean, i guess i've always sucked at tennis. but seeing how horrible i was today, i was just amazed at how uncoordinated i was. i blame the stupid finger!! jeez, it hurts to type, and i cant really write. but my dad knew that my finger was all crapped up, and he still made me play piano. thats just cruel! but then again, i was too scared to actually say that my finger hurt...

10 days until my birthday. *sigh* sorta dreading it.

phew. im so procrastinating while im typing this..

i hate wednesdays. i cant believe how many times i've said that. i simply hate wednesdays!!
sure, we get out of school early. big whoop. but theres really nothing that special about it.
today was simply exhausting! as if showering this morning wasnt tough enough. i had to shower, while washing my hair, with just one damn hand. it was either that, or feel the evil wrath of soap stinging my poor finger. evil soap >:/

gah! you never realize how important one little finger is, until its useless, and painfully annoying. we had to write so much in class today, and my hand was all deformed looking when i wrote. because yes, i had to stick out my "ring finger" when i was writing. sometimes i wish i was ambidextrous.

in debate, we had to do flowing, which is basically writing really, really fast notes. the one day my fingers all crapped up, and we had to do an exercise about writing really fast. jeez.. now my hands are so sore when i write, which really sucks because i still have so much homework left to do.

tennis didnt help either. there was so much running, and hitting involved! not to mention, we learned my favorite stroke: the serve. THE perfect stroke to help me take out my aggression.
but i couldnt get out enough agression today because my stupid band-aid kept moving, which really made my finger hurt like hell.

right after tennis practice, still all sweaty and sticky, i had to go to piano lessons. and damn it, my teacher's room is like an oven! so not cool.
i sucked at piano today too, because my arms would shake randomly, and my finger was way to hesitant to even play the keys at the right time.

today would've gone so much more smoother if my finger wasnt so.. painful, and annoying. all i really wanna do is curl up on the sofa, with my Nicolas Sparks book, eating ferrero rochers like theres no tomorrow.

not to mention, as if i dont have enough on my plate as it is, i wanna try for leadership. im not sure which position, because i know i cant handle president. vice president sounds alright with me, but i might not have enough time. secretary and treasurer do a lot of organizing and calculating money.. and im not good at either of those. so, maybe just an independent leadership person?

whatever.. i just hope my finger's alright. we have a tennis tournament next thursday... already!?.. by golly gee wiz.

i think theres seriously something wrong with my metabolism.
this morning, my family left to this restaurant next to the bay because my mom arranged this sort of brunch/ birthday party for my dad. there were like, 50+ people. all were relatives, except for a few friends.
my mom actually pulled out this dress/tank top thingy for me to wear. i had no idea i even had it.. i begged for her to let me wear jeans too, and thankfully i got my wish. i paired them with a pair of flats, but nooo.. just as i was walking out the door, my mom made me wear high-heels -_-
and lemme tell you, what a pain in the ass! i had to walk around greeting people, in high-heels. not to mention, the restaurant put the buffet thing MILES away from our reservation room.

but the food was so good!!! i got 4 plates of food. one whole plate full of pasta, bacon, and toast. another filled with desert: cakes, cookies, pie. then i went and got more: a plate full of salad and more pasta. and then, a plate full of chocolate covered strawberries, watermelon, and a cappuccino with marshmallows, a cinnamon stick, and whipped cream.
i also really wanted to go back to get some rice and more fruit.. but i was way too full, and my feet hurt.

i think thats probably the most i've ever eaten in my whole entire life. but the good thing was that i started walking around the restaurant in circles, high-heels in hand, barefooted, so that i wouldnt get fat.
thats the thing i dont like about buffets! SOO much yummiful food, but not enough space to store it all. i usually dont like gorging on food, but sometimes i just do.
=P
*sigh* i miss summer!! im still not into the whole "work hard" mode. man.. now im starting to stuff my face with food in the fridge. even if im full, (like now) i feel like grabbing a coke, a bag of chips, and watching Ryan Sheckler on tv. grrr... i promised myself i wouldnt do that! its funny, during the summer i can totally control what i eat. but when school starts, i eat like a pregnant woman.

the window to my room's open, and i can hear The Sound Of Music playing from the park down the street. oh yea! i forgot.. our park is having a cinema night. ooo..
"how do you solve a problem like maria!"

sounds interesting.

for once these past couple of weeks, im feeling content. i feel calm, cool and collected. like the huge whirlpool of life, came to a slight relaxing sway. i cant say that im not looking forward to my birthday anymore. i think it'll be nice, to have just one day, where im noticed. it'll sound selfish, but i'd like it if just.. i had the attention i wanted. i'm not saying i want breakfast in bed, or anything to do with being catered to. just a simple "happy birthday!" is good enough with me. its almost as if no one says nice things to me anymore. but when they do, its just because i did something in return. like, "pick that up for me. thank you." thats about as polite as people get towards me.

im glad that theres no homework tonight, and im so grateful for the break. maybe its just because tomorrow's back to school night..
i almost kind of wish there was just a little bit more homework. it sounds crazy, but i feel unproductive, and incredibly bored. i guess i could do extra credit...
its funny. i always complain about how bored i am. but when given something to do, im too lazy. maybe thats how it always is.

ugh.. theres so much "peer pressure" at school. couple of kids at my school got together over the weekend for someones birthday party, and there was tequila. my friend attended the party, and she told me how it was the first time she drank alcohol. but the thing was, she sounded so proud and accomplished of herself. she'd been utterly brainwashed by today's society. damn it.
i really wanted to yell at her about how she was gonna hurt herself, and do stupid things at such a young age. i wouldnt call her a close friend necessarily. but still, i care about her. i dont want her to mess up her life and regret things, just to fit in.
but then again, maybe thats how she'll learn. by going through it. i'll just be there to pick her up, if things go horribly wrong.

just like any other girl on the planet, im craving chocolate! yumm.. chocolate. man, i really want a Toblerone bar right now. maybe i'll walk down the street to find one.

to a little kid, 9-11 is just a date to them. but to us, the date has so much more meaning. when you hear the words september eleven, you instantly think about what happened 6 years ago. i still cant believe that was 6 years ago! i can still remember that day pretty clearly..

anyways, on a brighter note? um.. i've apparently "made the team" in tennis, which surprised me in two ways.
1. i thought i was already on the team?? and
2. how the hell did I make it?!?!
so i guess that means i'm playing my first match on thursday. holy crap. my other friends didn't make it, but at least i have one friend on the team with me..

just when i think i've finally gotten over my past, it comes right back to haunt me. i actually find this ironic, that i'm using the word "past", considering the fact that i'm at such a 'young age'..
i guess it'd all depend on your definition of the word.

back to school night was a couple of hours ago. it was nice to have the house all to myself, even if it was just for a little while. all i did was open all the windows, and play the stereo incredibly loud. which was fun 'cause i was able to dance around the living room, singing, head-banging, and not giving two shits about how i looked or sounded. it was fun letting myself loose for a while.

i'm also debating on whether or not i should dress-up for halloween, and go trick-or-treating. i'll walk around for the sake of candy. but i don't know if i wanna go anymore..

i walk through school trying to act confident. and sometimes, i am. but honestly, im incredibly insecure. at school, i look at all those people who just seem so perfect inside and out. and i really really wish, i could be like that.

all through middle school, i compared myself to people around me. call it a flaw of who i am, but its just what i do. so i tried to act like them. then on one fateful day, my imaginative confidence just vanished, all because of a stupid boy who made fun of me. he wasnt a significant guy either. i barely knew him.. but it hurt.

the reason to why i criticize my friends for falling all over the place and acting stupid around guys, is because yeah, i'm incredibly jealous. they can talk to guys, and be so flirtatious.
ugh, i have so much more to say, but i'm too lazy and tired to go into a deeper analysis of myself.

haha.. i just realized by looking at the date, that today is the day that my mom always confuses my birthday with. i was due on the 12, but didnt come 'till the 14. on every emergency card, or form my mom had to fill, she'd always put down 09-12-93. it was kinda depressing how my mom would forget my birthday date. so i was surprised when my mom didnt suddenly say, "Happy Birthday honey!" that means, she either remembered that my birthday isnt today, or she just didnt give a crap.

i still dont get how i made the team. im happy, but i suck at tennis. couldnt someone better take my place?? Jade and i are like, the only people.. the varsity team's made up of people who came back from last year, and then theres 4 new girls. i guess i was just lucky.
but its nice to have Jade with me. we both know we suck, so we stick together.
sometimes for fun, we pretend that our tennis rackets are light-sabers :D

today started out pretty good. i got tons of happy birthday's, which really brought my mood up. my mom left a card with money next to my nightstand last night while i was sleeping, so that was my first gift of the day. my dad said that the jade bracelet he got me when we were in Beijing was his present for me.. so i didnt get a present from him today. not even a card, which actually didnt surprise me one bit.

my mom drove me to school today, and it was a relief since i had that tennis match yesterday. which we won!! ok, well.. I didnt win my match. but JV matches dont matter apparently.

anyways.. school was alright. got a lot of happy birthday's by random people.
second present of the day: Pocky. yumm.. i was eating it during geometry. our teacher's actually pretty cool, so he let me eat it in class. the odd thing was, the person who gave it to me, i barely knew. but whatever.. its Pocky!!
friends showered me with food during lunch, which was nice but irritating. i have a reputation at school for being a HUGE pig. so all my friends brought an extra bag of lunch for me to eat. in the end, i was unable to eat it all. just like i predicted.
then all of a sudden, i was alone. i mean, i was surrounded by friends. but they were all tuned into their own conversations. i was in the midst of it all, with their heads turn away from me, talking to the person next to them. i tried interjecting a couple times, but got shot down.

after school, friends got me more food, even after i refused numerous times. boba, pho, rice, candy.. but i guess its the thought that counts.

we played a lil tennis after, and i went on home. as i was minding my own business, my arm was getting really sensitive. i looked at it, and i saw bruises from all the birthday punches i got. my friends randomly pinched or punched me 14 times, and i'd scream and swear. i think they secretly enjoyed it..
many people have asked me, "what do you want for your birthday?!?!" i'd always answer with a "i dont know" when in reality, i have in mind the perfect gift that would make my day the best. it would've been the most greatest gift i could've asked for. but i didnt want people to go to the trouble for it.

while i was in my room, dennis showed up out of nowhere, and played me happy birthday with his guitar, Trouble by William Tell, and other songs.
it was truly, a brother sister bonding moment. not like we dont have those all the time. i can honestly say that dennis and i are a lot closer than we used to be. so dennis, thanks for the happy birthday song. it made my day a lot better :]

i thought that since it was my birthday, my dad would let me ditch piano. but he didnt give a crap. after that, it was cake time. my mom got me an ice cream cake, that was delicious. unfortunately, she had work today, so she couldnt enjoy it with me. but she wanted pictures, so i told my dad. he started making this huge fuss about it, and it was really unnecessary. in the end, pictures turned out horrible, and i was left in a bad mood.

i guess you cant always expect a perfect day.
.. but hey! at least im myspace legal. not that that matters.

I'm finding myself getting agitated very easily. I honestly don't get why. I'll snap at random times, but it only at family. With friends I don't snap at all. This past week, I've noticed myself getting pissed off, and yelling at my parents for no apparent reason. They just.. piss me off. I know I shouldn't be mad at them. After all, they were the ones who took care of me when they never really had to, and still they still do.
They ask me how my day was, and I'll just grunt with a "it was fine" and walk away. Then sometimes they ask for me to come outside of my room for dinner, and I'll snap with a "I'm not hungry". But sometimes I swear, they're deaf.
And oh, not to mention those relatives that came with us from China. My aunt really, really pisses me off sometimes. She doesn't know how to mind her own god damn business, and when I'm trying to bit my tongue so I don't snap again, she'll just say, "Oh look at her. Her temper has flared again!" and starts laughing. That just pisses me off more, because she thinks I'm stupid, and that i can't understand her. AND she's laughing at me. WTF.
Don't tell me, have I become another one of those stereotypical teenagers that pushes the parents away, locks herself in her room, and shuts them out? I really hope not.

As you can see, I've changed the way I'm typing. I dunno why, I just thought that my typing needed a little more challenge. Also because today's the first day that I'm 14. I certainly don't feel any different. Still immature at times, loud, and annoying. It's hard to believe that fourteen years ago, i was born. Weird.

Today, our youth church needed to practice our skit for the Youth Fellowship Sunday tomorrow. I'm glad there weren't too many lines for me. Just a simple, "The world is totally flat! :O"
But I'm also props. That means making all the stuff for the play. Our practice was 3 hours long. Would've taken a lot shorter, but some people were goofing off. Then we went out to get supplies at the Dollar Tree for props. I decided to skip watching Balls of Fury with them, so I could get my homework done. Hah, no avail. That extra couple of hours didn't do crap. I ended up sitting infront of the computer for 2 hours, and I only typed one paragraph.
"If humans have been given the right to life, then the death penalty violates that right. Thus, I affirm the resolution.. etc."
I fell asleep after I couldn't think of anything else, and when I woke up, I gave up.

I'm gonna be busy the whole day tomorrow with church, and then "Teen Group". I also wanna try to get some tennis in, because we have another match on Tuesday. We'll see what happens.

*sigh* I think I'm starting to blog too much. Its like everyday, I'm posting a blog. Jeez.. But I can't help it. Everyday I think, "Is this stuff blog worthy? If I write this in my blog, what will I title it? How can I put into words what just happened?"
Its like I'm living my life through my blog. I'm becoming way to dependent on this thing, and it looks like crap. I still have yet to change the ugly design, and make it into something more appealing to the eye.

Headache, stuffy nose, slight cough.. I think I'm sick.

Kinda busy, so I'll just blog a quicky.

When I got home yesterday after a spectacular Youth Fellowship, I had to finish my debate paper. I actually started crying, because I didn't know what the hell to do, and I was so frustrated. In the end, I only typed 3/4 a page, when I was suppose to type 6. So I kinda got in trouble today in debate class..
Went to sleep early last night. Even when I did, it was impossible to get up at 6. I kept telling myself 10 more minutes. I actually didn't get up until 7:10. And I forgot to put all my stuff away from last night. So it was a surprise I wasn't late today.
In geometry, I sit in the back corner (teacher assigned the seats) with all the "bad kids". The dude infront of me brought Brandy in a water bottle. They were literally passing it around, talking about smoking and drinking. The dude was pressuring the girls around him to try it, and I seriously wanted to strain his neck. He just reminded me of all those stupid people out there that put pressure into people to do bad stuff. The girls tried it, and they wanted to be cool. So they tried to chug it also. As a result, they started coughing violently, and complained about "tummy aches". Yeah..

Tennis was good. David and Andrew kept on complimenting my serve :] We got our uniforms today! Mines too big for me :[[[ It like.. hangs on me. And the materials... spandex-y. Sounds comfortable doesn't it?
Tennis match tomorrow. Home match, which will hopefully bring more spectators? Then "practice" debate tournament Wednesday. ARGH! I also have to do my Piano Workbook. Yes.. I have a Piano Workbook. Hopefully I can pass my next piano test soon..

Voilà! My first ever "official" debate paper! Finally! I'm incredibly proud of myself for pulling through and actually finishing it. Although, I kinda cheated the pages. Double spaced, and barely enough pages so I can fill 6 minutes of talking. But ho hum. Who cares :P

For our tennis match, the Alameda team didn't have a Junior Varsity team. So that means that we (the El Cerrito Junior Varsity team) didn't even get to play today. I was a bit disappointed, but it was alright, because one of the parents brought watermelons and cookies! So I was doing my geometry homework, while munching on cookies and watermelon :]
Despite the freezing wind, my new, green, too-large-for-me uniform kept me all warm and toasty. They're sleeveless, and make me look like Cruella de Vil because they go over my shoulders in a way that makes them look pointy. But whatever! At least i get to wear green and black (Slytherin colors!!!) without looking incredibly wannabe-ish and tacky. So I don't mind. At least its better then those ugly mustard yellow outfits the Alameda team had, even though I admit, the design was cute.

I feel like I keep on busying myself. I know I'm probably gonna regret it sometime later down the road, but right now, it just feels right. I finally got my coach to email me back a schedule for ice skating. Even though its only twice a week now, its better then nothing. Wednesday's and Friday's at 5:45am. It seems like an ungodly hour for most people, but its pretty normal for me.

I WAS thinking of joining leadership, but it doesn't seem possible anymore. Now, I'm thinking of taking this Medical ED thingy. I really really really wanna join it. I mean, I'm choosing between the things that could hold my career.
Mom wants, "Doctor or Lawyer only!" Those are her exact words. So, what should I chose? Debate. Helps the lawyer part out. And medical ed or whatever, helps out being a Doctor. I'd do both if I could, but the catch is that they're both during Block 4. Well, debate is Block 4a. But its not like I can always miss half of the medical ed class thingy.

I have so many things I want to do. I know I should be thinking "What do I want to do when I grow up? Not what mom thinks." But right now, I still don't know. I'm just following my mom's guidelines until something else interesting catches my eye.

I have my first ice skating practice since I left for China on Friday. But the good thing is, I'm really looking forward to ice skating again. I just hope I'm looking forward to it for the right reasons..

I remember in second grade, we'd have spelling tests with every day of the week on them. I'd ace all the other words, except Wednesday. I always spelled it Wendesday. Grr.. Maybe thats why Wednesday's are usually horrible for me. But maybe its just because I have piano lessons on that day.

For the past few days, I've been finding it very difficult to stay focused on one thing. My mind likes to wander around while I'm thinking, and trust me, my attention span sucks. I don't have A.D.D. or anything, but my attention span is pretty low for an average person. Even now, as I'm typing this, I can't seem to stay focused on it. Jeez..

In debate, I guess you could say I won. I can't tell yet, because my opponent started urm.. crying. So the judges (our Novice debaters) just decided to hold it off until tomorrow. I had to debate a fellow classmate, and she started crying after my speech and cross examination. Haha, I feel kind of bad. But not really.

Urgh. Such a frustrating tennis practice today. It was so damn windy! I thought my legs were gonna fall off! Seriously.. Wearing shorts in the wind is so not cool. Especially when you get pelted by leaves. The wind almost blew me away a couple of times. But it'd always stir up pollen here or there. So which ever way I turned, it would either be a mouthful of dirt and pollen up my nose, or a fist full of hair in my mouth. Even tying it up in a ponytail didn't work! So it was extremely hard to play tennis. I also screwed up my wrist today..
My form on my forehand sucks. Coach keeps saying "Racket back."
WTF! But my racket is back! Or do you want it infront, so I can wack you upside the head?!

Went home, and felt like collapsing :[

I just love writing, typing, and reading. I never knew that words, simple words, could hold so much meaning. For the past 5 days, I've been constantly writing. Writing in the middle of class, writing during lunch, writing whenever I can. So far, I have 31 pages filled with senseless freedom writing. I've always kept a Diary. I owned one when I was 10, but never actually started writing in it until mid- 7th grade. I know that whole "Dear Diary" crap is so 4th grade, but it really works.

I think writing helps me find myself. It helps me focus on one thing at a time, and keeps me from going crazy. Its great that I've found something that involves so much freedom, and independence. But sometimes, I wish I could just word things out a little better. Like I'll have the perfect sentence to write, but when I actually write it out, it comes out all awkward and weird. *sigh* I guess it'll just have to have some getting used to.

This morning I started ice skating again. It was ok. I kinda started tearing up, because being back there brought back too many horrible memories. But overall, practice was good.

My friends not from school decided on a little "Saturday Pick-Me-Up". I hadn't seen them in a couple of months, so it was nice to catch up with them. It was just three of us. A small group, just the way I like it.

We went to the Hilltop Mall in Pinole. Normally, I hate clothes shopping. Its such a hassle. But when I'm with friends, and if I actually sorta have money, its okay. Though I kinda of like window shopping better.
Zumiez has the coolest clothes that don't fit me, and prices too high for me. But I can't say I don't like the.. uh, "atmosphere". Yea, we'll go with that. Chatted a little bit with the workers there.. Nothing special?
We left and walked around more. Got food, and my friends wanted to go back so they could chat again with those hot cashier/worker guys. Our excuse was, "Oh, we're just looking at clothes, again."

We watched In Good Company. Kinda disappointed in the ending.. He didn't get the girl! Even when he confessed he loved her!! D:
I think I ate half my body weight in junk food today. Burger King, Peach Rings from Anchor Blue, and then Jack In The Box. I think the only healthy thing I ate today was a watermelon.
Maybe I'll run tomorrow morning..

Phew. Just finished my homework that I procrastinated throughout the weekend.
The weather seemed to have all of a sudden become gloomy over the weekend. The days are shorter, and the nights grow colder. Autumn reminds me of cinnamon, vanilla, hot cocoa, warm fuzzy blankets, leg warmers and seeing the rising moon at 6:30 pm. Autumn means instead of wearing shorts to sleep, its PJ pants. Instead of tank-tops, its scarves. Converse/Vans for Uggs, and hoodies instead of ponytails. Those nice warm socks instead of ankle socks. It also means never leaving the house without a jacket, let alone an umbrella.
*sigh* I can't wait for Christmas. I just love Christmas. The warm fuzzy feeling I get inside when I think of Christmas is just so exciting! Spending time with the ones you love, Christmas carols, candy canes, putting pretend mistletoe above your friends' heads, presents, and.. Santa Claus!!! :D

Jeez.. its only been a month into the school year. It went by pretty fast, and I hope it continues to go by fast. Honestly, I don't want Freshman year to linger in my memory. It'd be a waste of memory space, or something like that. Heck, I might not even buying a yearbook! Homecoming is coming up, and I think there's a Homecoming Dance. Psh, if there is, I'm probably not going.

Anyways, I didn't have time to write today, or read. But I watched Aquamarine. It was good, in the teenage "searching for love" kind of sense. Cheesy, corny, but sometimes has cute "aww.." moments. I feel envious. But then again, I was envious of Disney movies, so it doesn't really matter.

I still haven't finished reading Harry Potter 7. Urgh.. I need to do that soon.

This morning, I felt lethargic and lazy. During school, I wasn't paying attention at all because I was too busy reading. I finished my book today, but that left me with homework that I don't understand. Tennis was frustrating. Again, stupid coach was getting on my case about form. Jade accidentally hit him with the tennis ball as she was returning a serve. Right smack dab on the hip. I laughed.. and couldn't stop. Felt kinda bad after.. poor old guy.

Had a physical today. I found out I'm 5 feet now!! I'm happy about that, but its sorta sad because I mean.. I'm a Freshman, and I'm only 5'? Jeez.. I need a growth spurt soon. All the guys I was taller then last year, are taller then me now :/

So, with Andrew off to college, David is our new Tennis Adviser?! YES!! Awesome!! He makes practice so much fun and enjoyable. He actually gave me a dollar today, because I won something last week.. I don't exactly remember, but hey! Its a dollar :D
David's an uber coolio guy. My best friend's sister goes out with him. 3 years already! Goodness gracious.

After tennis practice, I wanted to vent out some frustration by running around the park a couple of times. So Jade dropped me off at my house, and I walked to the park. It was almost sunset, so the park was glowing with shades of orange and gold.
I was about to pass the bleachers when I look up, and saw a couple of 8th grader boys, and him. I mean, I've tried to make things unawkward! But he's just stupid, and he still probably hates me.
I tried so hard to avoid gazes, so I run past them really fast. As I pass them, I can just hear them going Was that Tiffany? Thankfully, I didn't hear anyone say anything to me.
That whole ordeal added more to my frustration, so I run another lap. This time, I was unlucky.
"Oh hey! Whoa.. Its Tiffany." I wave. "Did you get taller?!?!" I shrug.
I passed them one more time, before I called quits. Then I went home.

Bleh... I'm glad everything's in walking distance. From my old middle school, to the park, to Safeway, to Baskin Robins, to the Plaza, to my high school, to 7-Eleven, and to the Community Center. Too bad I don't necessarily like walking.

This morning I had ice skating.. Which is really weird, because it feels like I didn't have any ice skating at all today. But my sore butt reminded me that I did. Yea, I fell on it, and it hurts to sit. Grr..
So I had a dream last night. And my alarm clock went off at 4:10. I hit the snooze button, and I went back to sleep. Then it goes off again at 4:30. I hit the off button, and just lay there to close my eyes. I remember my dream, and replay it. I ended up falling asleep, and didn't wake up until my dad knocked on my door which scared the crap outta me. I went to school, and I totally forgot the dream. This always happens though. I'll remember when I wake up, but then forget it later on in the day. Its so weird, because when I woke up, it was so fresh in my memory. But I couldn't even remember it at all today. Am I suffering from early signs of short term memory loss?

Came back from ice skating, took a nap. Didn't wake up until 7:50..
Biology was very interesting today. One of our class hamsters got loose, and everyone was trying to find it. Then we got into this whole discussion of if we get a new animal, what kind it should be. We narrowed it down; a gecko or turtle. I voted for gecko, because turtles are boring. They're cute, but boring. At least if you poke a gecko, it'll move.. But anyways, half of our class time was based on everyone pointing out good and bad points to each animal, and then screaming across the room saying "But turtles are easier to take care of! Plus, do you want crickets all over the classroom?!" Which is stupid, because you can feed gecko's meal worms too.. *shudder*

Don't get geometry right now. I mean, I do, but I write the most in my little notebook in geometry. I'll probably write.. 2 pages front and back in geometry. Just ranting and stuff. So I'm completely tuned out, which isn't so great. Even though I'm getting an A, I can feel it slipping..

Geography wasn't that great of a class. We were in the computer lab today, and we had partners. Unfortunately, Jordan just happened to sit next to me, so we were partners. I've known him since last year, and he flirts.. a lot. Ugh.. So I wasn't surprised when he pulled out the stupid pick-up lines. "Are you tired? Because you've been running through my mind all day." "Do you know karate? Because your body is kicking." "Is it hot in here? Or is that just you?"
Not to mention, this other guy was throwing gum wrappers at me. And when I'd glare at him, he'd just smile. Like seriously? Can I get a break?!
I mean, if the feelings MUTUAL, fine. Whatever. But when its not, isn't it obvious?! You can stop anytime. But no, they just keep pushing your buttons.

Bleh..
I ditched tennis practice today, because I had to work on my science project with my friends, thats due Friday. I'm eager to learn debate, but when we're assigned to do a case, I'm just like URGH. I don't wanna do it.
It was too hot to run today. Hopefully tomorrow? I've eaten like, 3 bars of ice cream already. So it better be tomorrow. Friday's homecoming. Next week's spirit week.

First debate tournament Oct. 13 in Analy. Great.. I'm so not ready. I haven't even gotten through a full practice run yet.

Bleh.. the walk-in rally wasn't that great. Being Freshmen in high school sucks. We had a dance-off, and one person from each class goes. So this dude goes to represent Freshmen, and obviously wins. But since we're Freshmen, they hand it off to the Juniors.. like, wtf?!
Also, to represent Freshmen tennis girls, people were forcing me to go. There was some sort of relay race, with football players, volleyball players, and tennis players. And I guess someone from each class had to go? Well, Jade and I are the only freshman girls on the tennis team. So people were literally pushing me off my butt, to go. I was so horrified, I almost started crying. I mean.. what if I embarrassed myself infront of everyone?!.. No way. Not happening.

We went to Jade's house after school and watched Memento. I found it good, because its the kind of movie that gets you thinking. Trust me, I spent 10 minutes after watching it, trying to think through the movie. We karaoke-d to various songs, and then started messing with her REALLY nice Nikon camera and then played video games for 3 hours.

Ice skating was pretty good today. My skating boots keep cutting me at the ankles, which really hurts. I need to get new skating gear.. Everything's starting to break/tear/rip. Ugh.. My parents keep getting on my back about those new custom made skates they got me, which I haven't worn or broken in yet. I think they don't even fit anymore. Eek! Not good.

Another week has come and gone. Wow, that was fast. Today's the first month mark. We started school August 28, not its September 28. Holy crap.. Today's September 28?!?! This whole day, I've been writing Sept. 27 on all my papers.... Dude. And to think, 2 months ago, TIC ended..
Looking forward to Halloween. Dunno what I'm gonna be yet, but I know I wanna trick-or-treat.
*heavy sigh* Thanksgiving break couldn't come any slower...

Ah.. I remember in 6th grade, everyone was jealous of my "graduation present": A blue iPod mini. Hah, back then, everyone envied it. I'd bring it to class and listen to it during school. Our sixth grade teacher was pretty cool, so sometimes we'd lay on the carpet floor, under the tables, and listen to my iPod.

Hmm.. I was just adding more songs to it, and it wouldn't turn on. I was thinking 'NOOO. Oh wait, if it doesn't turn on, then I can get a new iPod thingy!! Yess!!!!!!'
Boom. Just as I thought that, it turns on. I was kinda disappointed.
They don't even sell iPod mini's anymore. At least, from what I hear. Jeez.. Apple's making my iPod mini look ancient. The new stuff they came out with is sorta.. well, ugly. Who wants to watch effing movies on a teeny tiny screen? The original video iPod was small enough.
Besides, whats the point of making it smaller? Just means its easier to crush. I think the Touch is ingenious though. Some of Apple's products are like, super futuristic and cool. But some are just really stupid.

And what pisses me off, is that you can't even buy the original ear-phones that go with it. My ear-phones broke ages ago, and I still can't find the same exact ones sold separately. The one's I do find are ugly, and they don't fit my ear. They just love to fall out. Its so annoying! Gah.. I wonder if anyone else has this problem..
I feel like purposely dropping my mini on the ground so I can get a new iPod. But I'd just be wasting money. So I guess I'll just deal with this crappy mini, until it actually breaks.