Seriously, have I grown? Physically and in maturity? I can't tell if I've changed from the person I was last year to the person I am today. The things I do notice, however, are very little things. Like the fact that I don't say "lol" so much when I type, and.. wait no, thats about all I notice.
At gatherings where I don't really know anyone, I don't know what to say. I don't know how to interact with people, or what topics to talk about. Conversations usually stop after the introductions. What's your name, how old are you, what school do you go to, what's your job.. etc. I feel helpless in those situations. I'm more of an asking questions converser than an answering questions one.
As I'm growing older, (hopefully taller) I think I'm starting to lose my bouncy childish playfulness. Am I maturing too fast?
To be honest, I don't think I'm mature at all. I'm still a kid. I don't know how to make decisions, or what I want to do with my life. I believe I can keep my emotions in check, but I really can't. I'm fooling myself into believing that I'm mature. But once people ask me how old I am, and I answer with a, "15, almost 16!" I feel so young and babyish. Sometimes I think I'm lying about my age when I say 15. Like I'm a middle aged women lying by telling everyone I'm 23 or something.
Anyways, I was just about to read, but I felt like blogging because I haven't done that at all this summer.
Quick update: Nothing is really happening.. Except that my friend's birthday was last Wednesday and my friends and I threw her a surprise party. It was stressful and now I have no more money. Needless to say, she cried with happiness and all's well that ends well. AP Lit homework is kicking my butt, and this is probably my most enjoyable summer. I had no expectations for this summer, unlike last summer, so I'm content. Happy as a clam right about now :)
To anyone who reads this, I hope your summer is going great! God bless <3
PS since I've been getting the College Board SAT Question of The Day by email every single day, I've noticed how my grammar is really... well, bad. So according to College Board, my english/writing/sentence structures suck. Sorry?