I hate falling out of touch with people. Once I realize that we haven't talked in months then I try to shut out thoughts of that person, or those people. I guess when someone is important to you it hurts all the more when you realize that you're not friends anymore. Within 3 years, I've completely changed the group of people I call my closest friends. I don't know if thats bad or not, but the main reason why its changed is because of distance.
I hate being reminded of reasons why things fell apart. I guess some people like to get back in touch with all the people they haven't seen in years, but I hate it. Its especially bad if you still get along, and its really natural, almost like no time has passed at all. But in reality you're going to try for a little bit, but inevitably you fall out of touch again, and each time I'm sad all over again.
I know I'm lucky to have known all these people, to have been able to call them friends at some point in time. But it never lasts.
I know I'm being selfish, but for right now, I don't want to talk to anyone.