pink

Trying not to sulk right now. Tada~

Really really, I'm just procrastinating. I don't feel like writing papers or finishing power point presentation. I thought I couldn't wait until spring break.

Then I found out that siblings leave a day after I get out. In the past 12 months, I've spent under a month with my sister if you count all the days that she was in SF at the same time as me.

Changed my mind. I don't want to hold out for summer just in case I get my hopes up and its not as fun as I wanted it to be.

Still, can't help making a list of things I hate. Writing monster papers, programming and crunch rice are REALLY high up there. RAWR.

Buut my mom sent me candy <3

Not feeling as bad as I thought I was before.

Actually it hasn't been all that bad. Right now everything just looks terrible.

Two papers down, two to go, and a presentation due, all by Friday. I'm really tired.

Thing is, on top of that I have to watch Ringu for class. I had discussion today and sat for an hour feeling relieved because we talked about readings. But lecture tomorrow is going to be on Ringu, Japanese version, not the American version. Also, I can't answer any of the reading questions if I don't watch. And there are 3 pages worth of questions.

._. I'd almost rather do programming hw or write a paper instead.

Tried to watch it in the daylight, but I chickened out 10 minutes in. Now I have to watch it at night. Hurray.

At least if I can't sleep I'll have plenty of work to keep me busy.

And to think, I was actually in a pretty good mood before I remembered I had to watch this. Eek. :<

I really suck as a daughter. I called and left a message, but I didn't even draw a card this year. Hopefully my siblings made up for it since they're at home.

Totally KOed, but there's still so much to do.

This guy had this really really cute shirt with kitties and a boba cup on it. Have to remember to ask about it tomorrow.

For some reason when I'm tired I tend to stack more nonessential things on my to do list. How did it get so long?

I usually read a lot outside of school stuff, and now its really a strange feeling since I haven't really read anything outside of class for almost a month. That's partially since I haven't had time, and I don't have new books to read, but I also haven't picked up any of my old favorites in a while either. This is especially disappointing since I made the effort to truck a bunch of books from home last tie I went back.

When I moved in fall quarter I didn't think I would have space, so I didn't bring any books with me. Gradually I bought some, brought some from home and now my little box/shelf thing is about 3/4 full with space for my school books. I'm starting to worry that next year I won't have space for books again. If I want to keep collecting I'll have to buy a bookshelf and make room for my books.

At home I never really thought much about collecting books, I have two and a half bookcases that are taller then I am, and they're almost completely full. Of course this is including all of the yearbooks from school, but this collection of books is what I have left after I got rid of all my "kiddie" books.

I guess I really do like books? I didn't think it was that unusual, and then I started talking to more people. My friends in high school mostly liked to read, like me. So we would exchange books and recommendations. Now we don't talk as much so I don't have as much reading material. Its harder to find books you want to read for yourself if no one is around to recommend stuff. At the same time that only works if you have the same tastes.

I guess what I'm most worried about is how I like to buy books. If I like them, I like to have a copy lying around so I can read and reread whenever I want. If I like a book its not weird for me to read it 5-6 times in the course of a couple years. This habit is kind of getting expensive though, I have to remember to visit Borders only when I have a coupon. I'm afraid that my mom is going to take a look at my bookshelves and then tell me to stop buying books and buy food instead.

Honestly, I don't think she trusts me to keep myself fed next year.

Either way this is pretty irrelevant. No matter how much I want to read books, finals are next week and I haven't started studying.

My family came to visit Saturday. I was about to say yesterday, but given the times its not actually accurate, haha...

Anyways, we haven't really been all together for a while now, so it was really nice. I think my brother has got even taller and my sister has really been working out. Both of them seem really happy, and I didn't realize how much I missed them until I actually saw them. My cute siblings <3

I think I spent 8-9 hours just hanging out with them, shopping, talking, eating and etc. I think some people find it weird that I'm close to my siblings, but I guess our family situation just has made us even closer over the years. It's easier to talk to my siblings about stuff (unfortunately not my mom so much) then it is to bring things up with friends who aren't as close. Maybe some of it is age, two and three years apart, and my brother and I are particularly close since we've spent so much time together.

I find it really funny, when shopping for some reason I'm the one who has last word on clothes, if I veto something, no one will buy it. At the same time I really don't think I'm the picky one, I hate picking out clothes for myself, but for other people its fun :p Even something as simple as finding the right jean size for my sister is really fun for some reason.

But highlight of my weekend was probably jewelry making. We went to a craft store and bought tools and beads, then sat around fiddling for a while. My sister has great ideas :) I taught her how to use the tools, and how to do some basic stuff with wire before they left, and she's made a bunch of earrings. I managed to make one pair, which I have with me and a single earring that I have to make the mate for once I get home.

I kind of wish that she left the supplies with me, but I have a paper due tomorrow and exams this week. It would be really distracting, and I think my sisters having fun at home.

This makes me feel a bit better since our breaks don't line up. It was great to spend time with everyone, but my room feels large and really quiet without them, even though my stuff is all over the floor.

Just one more week, and I have a lot to look forward to.