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To my dear, passive-aggressive roommate,

Let me make this clear, I am not out to get you. I do not have the time, inclination, or energy to purposely make your life miserable. Trust me, if I really wanted to sabotage every aspect of your life, it would be much, much more painful for the both of us. So please stop making comments suggesting otherwise; I've run out of polite and/or neutral sounding answers.

- Your roommate who really isn't that bored or sadistic

And while I'm at it..

To various the departments (DESIGN especially) that send me more emails then I have in my spam folder,

Stop forwarding every damn email that gets sent to you. And idiot students, stop clicking "reply all." I'm going to start marking you as spam, no scratch that I'm doing it now. I would have done it sooner if I weren't afraid of missing something important. But honestly, after putting up with more then two quarters of this, I've really found out that I'm won't be missing anything. Your useless messages make checking my email painful.

Now go away. I'm annoyed.

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I figured out why I'm so irritated, I finally got the letter from home and the candy inside was gone, there was a huge hole ripped out the the envelope. ;_;

Started up my book collecting habit when I started the school year. I had it under control in high school because there was other stuff I wanted to buy. Now when it comes down to it, whether its food, new clothes, computer, video games or art supplies..I'd rather buy books. They've stopped fitting in the bookcase along with the rest of my textbooks, so theres a stack on my desk and next to my pillow. I thought this was a sign that I should stop, and then $1 books on amazon were just too tempting. Another bad thing is that my wanted book list increases faster then I can buy books. At least at a decent price.

I can't tell if this is strange or not. My mom tells me that she worries whether or not I'll eat next year. Honestly I don't think I'm that irresponsible, and for now the dc is just 5 minutes away.

Not really sure why, actually I think I do. In the middle of the quarter, meaning that from 2-3 weeks in to second to last week of the quarter is "midterms" season. If you have 3 midterms for a class, is each one still a midterm? So I really don't feel like writing these papers and studying for my next midterm, especially since I just took one yesterday.

Trying to convince myself that its not a good idea to save that 8 page paper until the night before. But reading history sources is just so boring in comparison to reading my new book.

In other news, my roommate is mad again. Is it bad if I'm laughing at her this time? (If I have my headphones in, then I can't hear her :x really.)

Is this going to become a weekly thing? It seems like all I ever write about is cleaning the toilet. Then again after last week I did talk to her about it. She didn't bother to clean the toilet bowl because she already "finished" her chores for the week. Cleaning out a toilet? Not so fun, even with rubber gloves. And if I'm the only one that does it once every two week? I should take photo documentation, its obvious from her reaction that she didn't believe that it really makes a difference.

And she wonders why I don't also do the common room chores.

I can't wait to move out.

I really can't figure out what I dislike so much about my roommate. Yes, I could attribute it to a bunch of personality characteristics, but at the same time I've met people who are far worse. Also she's better in some ways then some of my friends, yet I can put up with, and even like them, but not her. I try to spend as much time outside of my room as possible.

When I look back at my entries for this year, I don't want to just see a bunch of complaining about this girl pisses me off. So even if I just accidently woke her up and the temperature in the room is unbearable, I'm not going to type anymore about her.

Actually, I'm in a pretty good mood. I had a not very interesting, but a satisfactory day. I guess I'm afraid that I won't remember all of this when I look back in the archives sometime later. So about today first, and then this quarter.

I was woken up this morning because my friend called to say she saw bunnies on campus. I rolled back over and caught the bus an hour later at 10:30-ish and I'm back in my dorm now. Thing is nothing really notable happened today, eating giant burrito that I only managed to eat 1/4 of, watching X-Men and squealing over Hugh Jackman, straightening Lisa's hair.

All my classes this quarter start at 12-1 and end at 4-4:30, except for one late discussion and one early discussion. I usually eat lunch at friend's dorm, stay their between classes, eat dinner there and sometimes hang out afterwards depending on how much stuff I have left to do. You might say that Lisa (who also lives in the same dorm) are permanent fixtures there. I actually haven't slept over there because its too cramped, but if I could, I would.

Not really sure what else to put. My life is otherwise unnotable. Time for sleep.

Just realized that now that I have my brother's macbook, I can finally mess with my ipod.

Frustrated because I can't get all the music back onto the computer without paying for something. Even funnier is that my music tastes have changed and my sister used this as a dump for her files before her computer died years ago, so I don't even want to save most of the music. Ah well. Time for a fresh start, I'm fed up with trying fix this.

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Oh I love you Cindy. But the majority of this is still going to go. D:

My roommate brings out the worst in me. Had another conversation about chores. Thing is I know it irritates her enough that she broke her silent treatment long enough to bring them up. I'm still not doing common room chores, but I'll do bathroom ones to keep the "peace." I feel like if she decided this herself, I can also decide for myself that I don't want to do them. It's just a stupid disagreement, but basically she hates my entire lifestyle. She doesn't like how I'm messy, how I'm up at odd hours, how I procrastinate, how I put on headphones and ignore her and I don't really remember what else. It's like there are problems from how I blow my nose, to how I do my chores and clean the bathroom.

I think that even if we weren't roommates, we wouldn't get along. I wouldn't go as far as to say I hate her, I'm going to avoid pissing her off on purpose, but I'm not going to act like a mouse in my own room. She accuses me of a lot of things that aren't my fault. I have a pair of headphones and I listen with the volume pretty low, even when I take the headphones off I can't hear the music, so she shouldn't blame me for faint music or ringing noises she hears at night. I shouldn't have to go to sleep when she does, or turn off my desk lamp when she sleeps, I need more then the light of the computer screen to read a book. Honestly I shouldn't even need to justify every single little thing I do. Both of us are pretty quiet, I don't come in and out of the room at odd hours, in fact I really don't make much noise at all. If I plop my textbook on the floor once and make a loud noise, thats really not grounds for her to get upset.

Bottom line is that I know I annoy her a lot. Probably I guess right about 60% of the time and the rest of the time I don't figure it out. Honestly, I think you just have to rank some things above others. I dislike how she keeps the window open on hot days for her plant, but if its not hotter inside the room then outside when I get back, its bearable. There a things I dislike about her, but if it really doesn't effect me, then I don't bother to get angry. I just feel annoyed because as soon as I come back thats all I hear. If I make noise, she comments. If I eat cheetos without sharing, she comments. If I take a nap, she comments. I want my own room again.

Someone sharing their library has virtually ALL the big bang/and other songs I was looking for (actually it looks like the have the CDs, but thats irrelevant). I'm not becoming a rabid fangirl. I think. But I have to write this paper. Seriously. Whoever this japanese person is, I LOVE them.

paper paper paper timee.

Need to pack. Need to be ready in 3 hours. But I'm seriously food coma-ing. Pastaaa~ <3 Time to charge the cellphone.

I'll be seeing Jessica graduate this weekend!

I was talking to a friend today and she's so similar in regards to hobbies we both had in high school. It made me feel really nostalgic and I realized that I haven't talked to at least 3 of the people I would have considered "close friends" in over a month, and I haven't contacted several less close friends, since the beginning of this year. Keeping in touch takes so much work, and I have to remember all of this night before a midterm. I guess its partly my fault for not writing, calling or sending a simple email, but at the same time it makes me frustrated. It takes two people to keep in touch, and it seems like its useless to try if its going to end up like this, I'll feel guilty, but now there isn't anything left to talk about even if I do bother to try.

I know that some friendships are just like that, you can go back to being friends whenever you happen to meet up, or talk again. At the same time I already know who these people are, because its been such a long time. For other people its more frustrating because the first thing that comes up in conversation is the reason we stopped talking. I mean what am I supposed to say? I didn't like your girlfriend, We both were being stupid kids, You drifted away, or what? Even if at that time I was really bitter, or lonely, right now I don't think the same things, and its strange to dig up old things, especially if you left a lot unsaid in the past. I might not even remember things right, and it would be terrible to get into an argument before having a real conversation.

As always I have to think of irrelevant things before I have something big coming up, a paper, a test, or something. It might be another way of procrastinating. Either way, I'm tired, its a long day, and I really don't feel like trying. There's always tomorrow.