I was talking to a friend today and she's so similar in regards to hobbies we both had in high school. It made me feel really nostalgic and I realized that I haven't talked to at least 3 of the people I would have considered "close friends" in over a month, and I haven't contacted several less close friends, since the beginning of this year. Keeping in touch takes so much work, and I have to remember all of this night before a midterm. I guess its partly my fault for not writing, calling or sending a simple email, but at the same time it makes me frustrated. It takes two people to keep in touch, and it seems like its useless to try if its going to end up like this, I'll feel guilty, but now there isn't anything left to talk about even if I do bother to try.
I know that some friendships are just like that, you can go back to being friends whenever you happen to meet up, or talk again. At the same time I already know who these people are, because its been such a long time. For other people its more frustrating because the first thing that comes up in conversation is the reason we stopped talking. I mean what am I supposed to say? I didn't like your girlfriend, We both were being stupid kids, You drifted away, or what? Even if at that time I was really bitter, or lonely, right now I don't think the same things, and its strange to dig up old things, especially if you left a lot unsaid in the past. I might not even remember things right, and it would be terrible to get into an argument before having a real conversation.
As always I have to think of irrelevant things before I have something big coming up, a paper, a test, or something. It might be another way of procrastinating. Either way, I'm tired, its a long day, and I really don't feel like trying. There's always tomorrow.