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Guess who? (This should be really, glaringly obvious)

On a side note its been so long I think I've forgotten how to use ps. This took way longer then it should have >_>

Now for paper time!

I don't think I get attached to people that easily, but when I do, its very important to me. And it's not really something I consciously do. You either are, or you aren't. It's just frustrating, no more like confusing that it really can't be that simple. I know people are complicated, blah blah blah. But if I'm attached to people, if its a guy there is all this complicated thought behind it. If I'm like that with a good friend who happens to be a girl, then it's not even that unusual. I can't act the way I want to with friends.

It's funny that this comes up now..because this seems to happen over and over again. Is it so bad to keep finding people that are important to me? I didn't even realize until one comment just led me to think about more people. Now I can't sleep. I can't tell if I've been doing anything wrong, or even what I should be thinking harder about. I usually don't think much at all about how I act around people. Actually probably not at all. Maybe thats the problem. I still don't get it.

My room feels so empty after my family visits. It's so much louder, more lively when they're around. I need to study. I know. Less then a week until I can pack up.

Okay last day of school, by all rights I should be packing, but no I spent most of the day writing my final essay for history, then ran to the library to return Lisa's books and went back to help Lisa pack and carry all her stuff to her car because she didn't request an extension. Did I mention that I also hadn't eaten since yesterday's dinner. Grawr. And I didn't even get a hug goodbye for my trouble.

Anyways, getting to the point.

Vivien, what the hell are you thinking?! Everyone is getting pulled in one way or another into this problem. And I thought I was happy to get phone call from Ariel because I didn't get to see her off. I won't say that it's not fair, and it wasn't really any of my business before, but now you've kind of put your friends into a sticky situation.
Okay, done. Friends are friends no matter what, but I'm really more then a little annoyed right now. You are not handling this right. Stop being stupid.

Seriously. Stop upsetting my friends. It's pissing me off.

So many people in the same day, I just don't get it. And I just happen to be short on sleep. I am not in a good mood. Yes, I keep telling myself its NONE OF MY BUSINESS. But if people keep upsetting my friends, I think I'm going to explode.

What is WRONG with all of you? Do you not UNDERSTAND that you are being incredibly unreasonable and selfish? It's not even fun to talk to you anymore, I doubt anyone's behavior is going to change, but if this keeps on going I'm seriously going to lose my temper.

And at the strangest times I find that I suddenly have much more patience then I thought. Ah well, blood is still thicker then water. Now its time to curl up with my newest Raymond Chandler, tomorrow is another early day.