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Dude..... Portal was insanely fun :) I can't stop listening to the ending! :D THE CAKE WAS NOT A LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEREFOR THE PARTY AGENT WASN'T A LIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Should've just listen to GLaDOS and lie down and put the weapon on my chest :O WE NEED TO SWEDE SOMETHING! Like seriously :D Project tiems!

There's like... hella ants around my desk now :( Iunno where the came from... must've let an open drink out on my desk or something... anyways, our whole house is a mess now. My grandparents are going to be the last to move out, when they were planning on being the first. My mom is going to move into our new apartment like... this weekend while my sister and I remain here until ATDP is over. (Since We would have to either travel to Fremont from Palo Alto to take the BART, or take CalTrain to Milbrae and take the BART). Blehh... gonna go to doctors soon... D&D tonight!

About to get on the truck, all of the things are in the truck now. Kk gonna go now :p bb~

Erm.. yeah we moved to Palo Alto today, we moved most of our stuff to the this truck thing :P and then we spent like 45 minutes in the car driving to Palo Alto. Then.. we had to wait 30 minutes to move everything into the room. And we had to spend around 3 hours building everything back together and unpacking some stuff. A lot of stuff is still unpacked. I got the WiFi half-set up (Yes! No more Comcast!) An um... that's basically it! My apartment is literally right next to the school, so I can just walk out and to school in like 2 minutes xD

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You know the rules, and so do I! lol j/k :P Well.. it's finally here. Everything we've not been waiting for :O The end of ATDP '08. Well I suck at writing sap so I guess I'll just speak out what's on my mind.

I'm really gonna miss Trev and everyone else who's not coming back next year. This doesn't get easier over the years... but I've kind of learned to deal with it. ATDP aside, I'm really looking forward for the new school year. No one I know, first impressions everywhere! :P Haha, no really, I'm looking forward to it. I guess there's really not anything to do about the end of ATDP, besides just going to TIC outings... so yeah, I'm out.

Argh... even though it's summer, life is so much more confusing and distressed than life at school. At school there was a set pattern, something I could follow. But now, when summer "really" starts, I have a lot more freedom, except it goes to waste.

There's really nothing much to do here. I don't know this neighborhood, I don't know anybody here (except for someone who lives 1.5 miles away, but I'm not really familiar with him). All I can do is sit at my computer all day with nothing to do. I find myself drawing often. I try to draw happy scenarios but somehow most of them go wrong in a way. This is probably the most meaningless summer yet. We didn't go back to China this year, we're not taking any trips whatsoever. I can't go out with friends because they're so far away. I want to explore the neighborhood except all the bikes I find on Craigslist are either sucky or already sold. And trust me, you NEED a bike to get around here.

I need to stop lying. I need to stop hiding my feelings from everyone. I mean, it's really easy to lie over the internet. You just have to know the "right" stuff to say, when to say LOL, when to use faces. You can't tell apart truth from lie on the internet. I think Allison was right. If you keep things to yourself it's just a downward spiral of unhappiness. What I really wish is to never have had the habit of hiding my feelings. I've done it so often, in school, in chat, even at TIC outings. I didn't want other people to be affected by it, so I just bottled it all up and took it out on games. But it didn't work for me anymore, so I just kept everything bottled up until eventually I get super pissed or angry or I just insult someone every chance I get. No one's ever seen my pissy side, eh? I hope you guys will never see it... I've only been in it once or twice at school, both resulting in fights / suspensions. And yet I recently found a way to load everything off.

Drawing has been a major way of relieving my feelings. I'm so thankful for Cindy and Allison who have made me start drawing. Even though my drawings aren't so great, I can understand what I've drawn and know that every piece of paper I've drawn on have helped me pass time and boredom.

And boredom, how bored I've been! At first it was just Starcraft Starcraft Starcraft. But then it got a bit repetitive, since I was playing it more than 12 hours a day for more than a week. So I gave it a rest, and just sat in the chat room. And yet the chat room could not fulfill my needs all the time. I began talking to my friends back in San Leandro, them recommending various things from games to bikes and yet.. nothing really popped out at me.

TIC was a really good experience for me. I made friends that were closer than (all except 2) my school friends. And that relationship lasted, unlike school. It gave me a chance to tell what was the "good path". My school has too many "modern teenagers", students who don't care about class, who skip it anytime they want, who won't think for even a second before they start a fight. And the truth is, until TIC, I've always wanted to be that kid. I've always wanted to be popular, to be considered "cool". But I know now that you don't even have to try. You just have to be yourself, and you'll get accepted. If you don't, then screw them, they're not worth it. I learned how little other peoples' opinions mattered compared to what I've thought before. I'm glad I've been through TIC... it's prepared me for high school even more than middle school has done. I met some really awesome people. (Why do I think of Max when I type awesome?) When I think of TIC without Kass and Trev... well... it's just... weird. Even though Kass is a 'maybe', I have to assume the worst, right? I've always been assuming the worse all my life. I've always been prepared, thought out every single detail when I get in trouble, and every time, I've either escape the punishment or get a very light one instead... but only when I think. The TA's.. the classmates.. were all awesomer than my regular classes combined (Yes, even Ishida)

All in all, it's not really that bad. I guess I'm just waiting for high school to start. I'm sleeping 12 hours everyday now, which I haven't experienced in quite a while. I think this is just the break that I get for now... It's always calm before the storm, right? ;) I guess I'm just pouring out my feelings to this blog, where everyone who actually read my blog will read it, which I don't expect many people to. I guess it's just a stress reliever, I feel better somehow now.

What life is for me is just waiting now I guess... there's really nothing I can do about it. All I can do is just wait and pass time... Was it really a year ago when I first started this blog? It seems like time zoomed by... there's stars in the sky today... hope it means something good. Half of me wants to just keep on going with the facade and act happy all of the time, the other half well... it just wants to start over again, have a new start. But time warps are non-existent, so i guess I'll just change from now on.

I guess I wrote a lot in this blog entry... I haven't written this much like.. ever, unless I'm BS-ing an essay for English class (which happened very often in 8th grade). I guess I haven't been using this blog properly after all, just updating miniscule details... I need to take better care of this blog, maybe make a design for it once I understand MT. Wow... I thought this would just be like a paragraph or two.. heh, Allison made me write more than 4 paragraphs... Meh.. gonna go draw now...