So I herd u lieked mudkipz

All in all, karaoke wasn't that great, but it was a decent way to put an end to Japanese 1. 5 of us came beforehand and we shopped for 3 hours... someone proposed to do a furikura pic... O_O and we did. Mmmm after that 3 hours of karaoke, which had some noticeable songs... ::coughnevergoingtogiveyouupcough:: Then after, dinner and dessert crepes and we were done.

And that's exactly what it was, we were done. It was another end. Lately this summer, there's been a lot of ends for me. Ends for sports, friends, schools... I think this was like, a turning point. But that means that there's going to be a lot of starts, to replace the ends. I think I'm going to look forward to what the new school year has in store for me.

About high school, I'm looking forward to it, yes. But.. I've been hearing all sorts of things about high school. Most people just say that it's not bad, but I'll be disappointed. Meh, I guess I'll just be the stupid fool and not heed their advice... I'll be looking forward, maybe it'll just be like they predicted, or.. maybe I'll be the unique one. Blech, who knows... I don't want to write anymore.

Why is it becoming hard for me to be motivated? All of the sudden I just feel like... not doing anything. As if I just became lazy. I think my energy level is going down day by day... Our house needs to get actual food. I'm tired of these fast foods and such. Maybe if I got my mom to buy ingredients... blech..

So today I finally got a suitable bike. Single Speed road bike for all of you out there that care. I'm guessing I'm just going to ride this around until I save enough for a rear fixed wheel. Hibernation sounds really nice atm.

I was always the cheerful one. The one that made people laugh. Whenever my friends would get sad, I'd always go over to their house secretly and cheer them up. I've never ever been depressed in front of my friends. I mean... it would lower both our self esteems... why bother?

But what the hell am I suppose to do when I can't do anything about it at all? Even though two of my friends are going through a state of sadness/depression right now I can't do shit. It's like the windows in my room. Four wide panels. Except that you can never go throw and touch anything. All you can do is observe from the inside.

I don't know what to feel right now... I guess... I feel like crap.

Ugh. Sorry. I haven't been updating this blog. Mainly because I have relatives from China at my house and don't have privacy. But I'm also to blame. I've been distracted and lazy, but I'll update now :P

About the relatives, they arrived midnight between Thursday and Friday. Two in total, one of them is my grandpa's brother (one of six O_o) and the other is his oldest daughter. They're staying here until Wednesday... can you believe that? 5 people staying in a one bedroom apartment. Anyways, they gave me my late Chinese New Years money (1000元 if anyone actually cares) and just dozed off.

On Friday we went to SF Chinatown to meet the second oldest brother of my grandpa's (My grandpa is the youngest, the oldest recently passed away, the visitor is... 2nd or 3rd youngest? Iunno O_o) We had tea and then walked down to Fisherman's Wharf. We walked around a bit, then took a ferry to Sausalito, eating dinner there and going back home. Saturday was Magic Day for me at Berkeley, so they decided to go to Berkeley campus and explore.

Last night was dreadful >.> A few of my grandpa's brothers and some of their wives and such were talking for close to 3 hours... while I had to sit in a confined corner with barely any room to move. Toward the end, we received the traditional compliment after dinner, which is this um... soup-ish thing? Water Chestnut drink I thought it was? =/ Whatever. They served it and I was force-fed >.< Not really, but in the Chinese way where you have to drink it or you're being disrespectful with them.

It reminds me how twisted some customs are... maybe some people do know, when you're eating with relatives or friends that you don't normally eat with, you fight for paying the bill. Except you don't really want to pay the bill, you just do it because it's polite. I noticed smart people fight until the end and let the other person win so they don't have to pay >.>

And then that night was also kind of sickening, we had to drive with 5 people in the back, and we all know that normal cars only fit 3 people in the back >_< So... kind of nauseating, I hate that feeling when you realize you can't stretch your leg, then you feel the need to stretch it, and feel really uncomfortable. Mmm then Olympics watching until 12:30, with the visitors criticizing USA, even though the China team WAS awesome. The Japan gymnastics guy had to remount :P hahaha.

My mom let me stay home today because of D&D so yeah... mainly D&D-ing and being bored. I found a lame sketchbook in one of my boxes that I packed... lame, but at least I can use it. Lalala 16 more days until school...

brings back memories and reminds me why I first joined cross country.

Monday is the last day of true summer for me... I need to prepare everything and start digging up things. '07 ~ '08 is finally over! Everything's gonna change in '08 ~ '09. Haha... I'll see what it has in store for me.

Sometimes I think about him. Wether or not it was a smart decision for me to "save" him, so to speak.

He had no friends. He was one of the best students at the school, except everybody would pick on him. He was in my Geometry class, I sat next to him, and every time we both finished early I would talk to him. I found out he was pretty cool. I decided to introduce him to my friends, or well, one of the groups.

At first, they were skeptical, as he was infamous for being the biggest nerd at our school. But after a few lunches, and not-so-few insults and jokes, they got to really like him. At our school, there was a group of Asian guys who hanged out together, and a group of Asian girls who hanged out together. My friend er, well, had a crush on someone from the other group, but was way too shy. It was one of the unstated policies that unless you were one of the few people who knew the other group since elementary school, you didn't associate with them unless you had to.

After a few strings my friends and I pulled, those two met and started to appreciate each other. They would "go out" not really, because you don't really go out in middle school -_- bunch of retards. And then it all went downhill from there.

Most groups have one or two backstabbers. Not mine. We had about 6. They started going online and talking shit about the guy to the other group and visa versa. The... two people got really uncomfortable and decided that it would not work out. That was when we would place the blame. Since the guy was the most recent well, newcomer, of course the blame would be on him. Everyone tripped him, laughed at him, did everything they could to make him feel bad afterwards. He went into a state of depression, and sulked around school.

This was around a week before school ended, so nobody really paid attention to him because the hype was all around graduating promoting. I never really go to see what happened to him because we were so worked up preparing for the final day. I guess, he went back to his old status, only now he tasted what it felt like before. And now well, I guess I don't know if I should regret introducing him or... if I shouldn't...?

was amazing. We met in front of the theatre to get our name tags and be assigned groups. Then we went inside the theatre, between two rows of cheerleaders who err.. were cheering and high five-ing us, and chanting something with freshman in it... yeah... kinda awkward. After that, there was like an opening ceremony thing that was composed of cheerleaders and random introductions.

We then proceeded to our classrooms and talked about high school (while chewing on snacks), played a lot of games, and had lunch inside the classroom. It amazes me how the school has money to buy 550 people 2 slices of pizza and a Capri Sun each... and that's just today.

Mmm after that we watched last year's homecoming... which is kinda... spirited xD the night rally, which is like, the closing thing, opened up with cheerleaders dancing to Daft Punk (HBFS) then each class does their own coordinated dance, (The juniors, well, seniors this year, did hey hey you you xD) and finally the teachers do their own coordinated dances.

After we had kinda a pep rally where we had a competition by betting on the answers of a group of 20 volunteers. The first statement was "I own a Mac", and 16/20 people said it was true xD Hahahahaha funnnnn :P Orientation Day 2 tomorrow! We have a BBQ!

What is it for?
Who do I please?
All that had left,
has sparked anew.

What is the point?
Who really cares?
All that I am,
has been thrown.

What is an equal?
Who really judges?
All that had left,
has flown away.

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What is little,
remains little.
What is done,
is forever etched.

What we've experienced,
defines us much.
What will happen,
will only decline.

... was funnnnn :) LOTS games, and then the teacher left, so the two Link crew leaders (and one of their friends who is freakishly outgoing) were talking about high school and the real side :O Well, nothing we didn't know, just confirmation :P mmmmm name games, Red Rover xD hahahahaha

BBQ for lunch, except it was just water bottle fights :P Mmmm... met a lot of new people, haha. Got a phone number... uhhh... what else? We got our Student Planners, and mmm that's it? O_o it was a great orientation xD

Well I scheduled, er well, I picked my classes.

Uhhh classes go as follow:

9th Grade English Advanced (Contemporary Heritage/Literary Style)
World History
9th Grade P.E.
Math*
Biology 1AC
Orchestra
AP Comp Sci

I need to take the Math Placement test on Monday 'cause I don't want to take Geometry/Alg 2... hoping to get in Adv Alg/Trig H

Looks like I failed. I forgot everything I did in 7th grade...

>_> Sorry. Kinda uhhh busy :X First day of school was actually yesterday, the 26th. First day was awkward, but it was fun :P Oh yeah, counselors screwed up my schedule, I have no math. :O Oh well, I know what I'm gonna do anyways. Japanese 2 is a joke haha my teacher has absolutely no control over us xD guess I'll have to self-study it... First thing that happens when I walked into AP Comp Sci: Our teacher slams a desktop with a bat, he's like "see? perfectly durable, no need to be afraid"

Plenty of friends now :O Even though I've only met them for like 2 days, I feel like I've known them for a while :P Been to 3 of their houses already, and stayed out with them till 11... OH YAH LOL NVISION hahahaha so we went to nVision to see the ESWC (Electronic Sports World Championships, where Elecronic Sports = Games :P) The Finals of CS Men's was pretttttty intense.... It was Korea vs Poland (eStro vs PGS) Korea lost by 2 rounds :( oh well :P uhhh I guess that's it :P

I had like a 3 day 2 night sleepover :P funnnnnn was from like 3:00 Friday to uhhh right now xD I realized how much I've been biking in pitch black without a light or helmet this past week... yeah, I'm gonna dieeeee >_> Should get a light and maybe a helmet soon... but it's so expensiveeeee :O I rather buy some candy or food. I'm exhausted right now, even though I woke up at 12 today... man, Brawl till 4 was fun :P mmm.... I guess that's it, going back to San Leandro tomorrow