Got into a fight with my parents again. Well fine, my mom. I always wondered what it was like to live with a dad. In my opinion, a lot of times the dad is the happy, more carefree one that tends to offset the mom. While this may not be true, and I do know some instances where it isn't, I would love to live by this fantasy. And if that's true, that means I only get the mean, naggy-ish, all out bitch of the package. While I certainly do know that people have it worse then me, I don't think it can stop me from well... what do you call it? Ranting? well yes, but I believe I had more to be thankful of before it got into this state.
which reminds me of something we covered from english class. is it better to have the perfect life and then lose everything? or is it better to start out with nothing and die with nothing. as an outsiders point of view they would believe that it is better to start out with a perfect life and then lose everything. therefore, they say, they still experience that part of life which they can remember and be thankful of. i say this is complete bullshit. A person who has never experience the "perfect life" will not know any better, so they do not know what they are missing out on. However, one who has experienced it will know what they don't have and would make it a lot more unbearable.
Not exactly unrelated, well, maybe it is... god, this is a lot more like english class -_- well ummm yeah so about the grading system... most teachers use the 90-80-70-60-0 system. And well, C is suppose to be "average" right? I can't believe how right the "asian parent stereotype" is for my mom. She requires "advanced". and what her definition of it is is that you know what you're suppose to know and you know what you aren't suppose to know. And my remark was, if you know what you aren't suppose to know, why bother coming to school? Just self study, because that's basically what you are doing, except with a spice of social activity in it and a prestige name. C is "average" it's suppose to be the most common grade... why the fuck are people complaining that A is the average? my mom just compares me to every single one of her friend's sons and frankly, I don't give a shit about them. Then when I compare myself to my own classmates, not even my friends, she goes, "Who cares about other people. Just because someone does it does that mean you have to do it?" and it just pisses me off.
As you may have guessed, our zillionth fight was about grades, progress reports just came in and it turns out I have a C- in history and C+ in Bio. The C- was expected. The teacher is a douchebag. The C+ however, was not, and anyways, it should be pretty easy to fix it to a B. The current game now, is just to see if I can maintain that C until finals week, and hope I get a C or better on that. Should I get a D, I'd probably get kicked out + if I don't, I'd have to retake that class for the credits. It was just 30 minutes of arguing. In Chinglish. I'm sure any person would just laugh to hear our conversation. But yeah, I have a lot more experience with illogical debating that somehow makes sense so I guess I "won". but she ended it with a "now you think about this carefully" which always pisses me off because it just means she has nothing more to say and doesn't want to lose.
Well, for those people who said freshman year was going to suck: Family life does suck yes, but for every other aspect of my year, It can't get much better, well, except for teacher relations, but I'll save that for another day. So, I'll just keep telling myself to uphold my promise to enjoy myself as much as I can and just take what comes. That's how life works, isn't it? What happens happens. I don't see why people dwell on it so much. As for me, I plan to just ignore this and live my life as it is. Shall it come up once too often... well... I have alternate options for housing... I hope I don't come to it though. During 7th grade, I DID consider running away, I planned out everything and stuff, and even had the parents agree. But a week beforehand the guy got in trouble with the cops and yeah... everything fell apart. And now with my sister gone, well, she was a safety net kinda, when we got into fights she would defend me and visa versa, it's going to be a LOT more dangerous and well, no more leverage. Which just makes the game funner :)