It's been a while. I've been apathetic for a long time, I have to admit. I've been trying to shut off some of the feelings I've had. But really, after watching Draw With Me (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MvjZ6VkLuCM), I couldn't really hold it in any longer. By the way, you're a heartless bastard if you don't feel anything after watching that. On other note, it made me think about what I cherished in life.
Sure, all I'm good at is complaining about how my life sucks, but in truth, I'm really grateful. My friends are errr, high maintenance, sure, but really, I don't know where I would be without them. We had a presentation given by a person handicapped in a wheelchair telling us how much little things can affect a person's life. And I started to realize, that little things add up. They actually matter. While you yourself may feel totally indifferent about it, it can drastically change someone's day. I guess, I'm finding more truth behind my community service hours.
Back to the clip. I've seen that wall. I've been on the other side of that wall. That wall was most of my middle school life. Now that I look back on it, it was pretty stupid, but those days, I was actually suffering. My friends, if you could call them that, was not there for me anytime, in fact, I don't think anyone was. On the outside it was just a normal group of friends but on the inside it seems like we were a bunch of typical rival girls who backstabbed each other. (sexist much? yes.) Anyways, I was actually a bit suicidal during 7th, and actually planned to run away from home with a stranger that I've never actually met. But then I was brought an ATDP application :). To tell the truth, TIC was the third on my choices list. But fate is awesome, and it brought me to TIC. What I'm trying to say is, I'm grateful for all of you who have done little things to impact my life greatly. I would not know where I would be without you guys, nor would I want to.